I would say that I got up one day and had a great idea, but the truth is, that would be a lie..... It came about by a small event with large implications. I had a moment of where I turned around at the end of my 11 year relationship and thought "What have I done with my life since this relationship began ?"...... The sensible person in you says"saved money for a house, car and all that crap" but myself wanting to give an honest appraisal looked a little deeper and saw that I had accomplished nothing in that time. In 11 years i had buried a father, alienated a partner to the point where she had grown away and sort others company, and worked. I had forgotten what was important......That was to have fun and experience as much as you can in the short space of time that we occupy the earth!!.....
There is no blame to be dealt. There is a sense of loss, and for me these are the catalysts that got me off my arse, determined to do something, make my mark no matter how big or small.....
That's how it came about.... Now to the choices....... You'll have to wait...
Those moments in time when you realize you might have really have f***ed things up are simply the worst, and the realization of wasted time / years can be paralyzing, but good on you for turning things around (apparently beginning by travelling to the US - weird decision, but whatever - some of us do that and not always for such good reasons!!!)... That decision and the perseverance to change life's direction takes enormous courage. xx
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