Wow, The last few days have been a blur for me, for that matter, so have the last 8 months. I have gone from my whole world falling apart in June to moving to a foreign country to do something that I have always wanted to do but didn't think I was capable of.
Initially when making a decision to make the move and apply for the match a good friend said to me " The thing that scares everyone most of all is the fear of being rejected rather than the application process itself" She was right. I hated the thought of applying and finding out that "no" they didn't want me.
No one likes to hear it. We all like to think we are good at what we do and sometimes not applying and putting yourself out there for judgement is often easier than looking in the mirror and judging yourself or being judged by others.
Before this I had always put up roadblocks to it all, too old, too experienced etcetcetc......"Blahblahblah"..
You tell yourself all these bullshit things so that you don't have to be judged but at the end of the day if you really want something, as I did, you have to be put on a stage by yourself and have the spotlight placed upon you.
When I first saw the match list, I had to pinch myself, I almost choked and then emotion took over....."Made it"......The euphoria has not subsided nor will it. I am in awe of all the support from both friends and family that I have received and am so pumped to be moving on both personally and professionally...........
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